Tomorrow is a big weigh in for me because I have worked hard his week to stay strict and I have gotten my exercise into 6 of the last 7 days in an attempt to try and come in under 350 pounds tomorrow. I do not think that I will come in that low but I am expecting a good number for the morning either way. My intake has been right where it should be hovering right around 1700 total calories per day, I am back in the game where being focused goes. Sometimes we have to look at whats happening and no matter what the stress level, no matter what else is going on we have to stay on track with some things in our lives not because we should but because we have to. If I take this weight loss as anything but a serious problem I am letting myself and my family down and thats just how I feel about it, 14 months ago I was actually afraid that I was going to have a life changing or ending problem related to the shape I was in physically and now I feel like I have given myself a chance. Bringing things back into focus has been a great thing for my mood and I do not think that is a coincidence, knowing that you are doing it right can have that effect.
I do have to admit though that I am in that "awkward" stage of weight loss, what I mean is that I have lost 180ish pounds (exact number TBA tomorrow) and well that changes the way a fella looks and in the colder months its easy to hide inside a hoodie. Spring is coming and that means walking around in tee shirts, though I think I look better and I definitely feel better I do have some skin thats looser than it should be and a lot of my clothing is not the right size. and fits a bit odd even if it is the right size, I am wearing mostly 4xl shirts and I now fit a 3XLT so there is a pretty noticeable difference in how they look from size to size and right now its ok because I toss on my hoodie and bamn! it looks ok, but when its warm out? and then there are my jeans, I do not know what size I truly am right now because I haven't bought new jeans in a long while. I am currently wearing mostly size 50 jeans with my size 58 belt all cinched up and full of new holes that I have poked so that I can keep using it on them when in reality I have a couple pairs of size 46 jeans that fit comfy to loose, I believe that I would fit a 44 waist right now but don't want to waste the money on clothing that will only last a couple months but then again I think it may be time for at least a few additions to my wardrobe. Don't take this in any other way than its something that I have been thinking about because I would rather have these problems than what comes with being 534 pounds, but none the less its something that makes me uncomfortable.
Tomorrow will show me how hard I have been working this week and I am anticipating a decent weigh in, I did peek at the scale so I have an idea of where I will end up. The clothing thing will work itself out because I have no other choice but to accept that there is an awkward stage to this weight loss thang not unlike when you go between haircuts or the mid stage of growing a beard where it just looks a little odd sometimes but the end product is worth that awkward middle section so all I can do is ride it out.
Intake for yesterday was 1680 total calories and I rode the bike for 24 minutes, I got in 1 gallon of green tea, 1/2 gallon water and some diet coke with my Subway that I had for dinner so I was well hydrated. Over all everything is back to what it should be and the weight seems to be retreating again and that is after all the point so I am happy. Now if you read regularly you know its time for you to down that glass of H2O that was earned for reading this far into my morning ramblings so get to it! in fact I will join ya this morning as I have had nothing to drink yet. Don't forget to check in on my tomorrow for the weigh in I have a feeling its gonna be a good one! and thanks for all of the support and comments, I enjoy reading them and they are always appreciated.