This at times feels unreal to me in the way that I look at a photo of myself and think about how large the fella in that pic is and then have to realize that it is me that I am looking at, I was laying on my bed last night and wify came in and said "where is your belly?" joking with me and I looked down and saw my ribs poking out. so we started chatting about how far we have both come in these last 7 months and we both agree that we cannot remember the bigger me. I think that I choose to not remember subconsciously because I don't feel that that guy was me in the physical and certainly not the mental. lots has changed and I am back to the old me that use to be there before all of the weight was gained, and I say that with tongue in cheek sort of because I have always been a big guy and an over weight guy, the difference is that I was always able to do what I wanted when I wanted to until the recent blow up in weight of course. but yeah there is some reflecting going on lately and I am not liking what I see in the past and I will not go back to that weight again.
As my previous post stated I did get on the bike last night for 20 minutes and rode nice and easy just to test my back out and we had a success, I rode and woke up this morning feeling great and zero back pain because of the ride so I will be riding again today. my intake for the day was good ending at 1495 calories. everything seems to be back on track given that just a few days ago I had back pain so bad that I could not stand, hopefully I can pull a loss out of the week. as of this morning I am up from Fridays weight by about 8 tenths of a pound weighing in at 405 on the nose today. with that I give you the menu from Tuesday.
07/22/08
Breakfast
8:30 AM
1 cup 1% milk 110
1.5 servings blueberry mini wheats 270
Lunch
1:00 PM
3oz roasted chicken 150
1 80 cal roll 80
1 slice whole wheat bread 70
dill pickle 10
1 tbsp miracle whip 35
3:00 PM
dannon light and fit yogurt 60
Dinner
5:30 PM
2 cups home made soup 350
3/4 cup white rice 150
7:15 PM
Mint zone bar 210
Grand total of 1495 calories for the day but I will admit to having a few taste bites of the soup that i had been cooking all day so its likely that its just a tad more than that, noting that will make or break me. also as I stated in my late night post I will hold off on the calisthenics for a week so that I give my back ample time to recoup from whatever it was dealing with and there you have todays post. I am still shooting to be under 400 lbs within the next couple weeks if not by next week, we shall see.
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I think that is one of the biggest misconceptions that I have people say to me since losing weight as I too forget where I was. "How can you forget being that big". You do forget though. Thank goodness for photos. I think its the same thinking that allowed me to get to my highest with out "seeing it". Amazing what the mind will do.
ReplyDeleteYou have come so far. You should be so super proud of yourself!! You will for sure be under 400lbs in no time!
Have a wonderful day!
*huggles*
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Reflecting back to the past is something that I try not to do very often, but it is nice to just sit down and think about what a difference I've made in myself in the past 7 months. I cannot imagine how you wouldn't think about it every single day - - because you've definitely taken back over your life - in a dramatic sort of way. I'm really proud for ya, and I know with your ever-optomistic look at this whole losing-weight thing, I know you will have continued success. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to read that your back is feeling better with a little bike ride added in for good measure. Looks like things are going along just great for you and I hope the pain is gone for good, as in not to return! I think waiting to add the pushups, etc back into the mix is a good precaution.
ReplyDeleteI haven't been able to forget yet...although I do feel so much more like the self I was at the start of college and haven't been that self for sometime!
I can't wait for some more comparison photos!