Psssst, you there, yeah you, come read this..

Busy is as busy does and a few other things have me all tied up as of late and I honestly just have not had the time nor the frame of mind to write in my blog regularly the past few weeks. Since my posting has slowed I have gotten some emails saying things like "please post a blog, you have no idea how much that they help me stay on track" and I have gotten a few asking "how did your gall bladder surgery go? is that why you haven't posted in a while?" even some just stating "I hope everything is ok, I noticed that you have not posted regularly lately" right on down to "if you don't start blogging soon I will hunt you down and MAKE you write a post!" and then there are the comments left on here, and I thank each and every one of you for all of the email letters as well as the comments, they do mean a lot to me.

I have not had a surgery as of yet for my gallstones, no real reason other than I just haven't had the time to set it up and go do it, my daughter is in school now which you would think that I might have more free time to workout or whatever but I have been using the time to get projects that have been started and remain unfinished done, hence the no posting. I have laid a brick patio in my back yard, built an awning, painted much of the interior and exterior of our house, built a plant table for my back porch and some benches for around my fire pit in the back yard, battled Spartan fleas along with a few things that will not make the blog and dealt with most of this all while my back was going through one of its hissy fits, it has been an eventful few weeks.

I am finding that staying on track is give and take with all of that said, I am eating good foods for the most part, I am exercising here and there, mostly walks around the lake with Wify but nothing more than that and the physical labor around the house and what I am seeing is that I did go up a few pounds but have been hovering there for at least the last 3 weeks with no effort at all with my eating or exercising which is both good and bad at the same time, now let me splain Lucy.

If I am able to stay at my current weight with close to zero effort, in fact I have had a couple trips to Dairy queen this last month so it IS a very laid back approach for me lately, this is a great thing! because it shows me that I am capable of eating an amount that does not make me blow back up to Violet Beauregarde stature again by letting my guard down, this is wonderful! I have relearned to eat in moderation and move enough to maintain a small weight range. The flip side of that silver coin is that it means that mentally things are naturally going to shift gears a bit because I am comfortable, I believe when people become too comfy that the game changes more than a bit, I am not saying that I am any less driven or determined to hit my weight loss and health goals but the time line becomes less important because I am not held back by my weight right now, I run with my kids in the yard, I rarely sit still long enough to get bored (perfect example is this blog not being written in lately) and I can positively say that I am comfortable in my own skin, no matter how much of it is extra for the time being.

Being comfortable is a double edged sword for those reasons, I mean it is the point of all of this right? to be healthy and able to do what I want to do? to be able to play with my kids and take walks with my wife? in that respect I am at my goal, I am a happier person than I was a year and a half ago, I am healthier than I have been in quite some time so I have won right? not totally true, indeed I am all of those things but I am still a 300 plus pound fellow wandering the planet like a behemoth in search of an adventure or perhaps just a bite to eat, I have lots to accomplish before I am finished, I want to run a 5k race, I want to get back into lifting weights and I need to make sure that my children understand how important living healthy is so that I may not read a blog in the future written by one of them explaining to the world just how difficult living as a fat person is, I just cannot let that happen.

I sit here 623 days after starting down a path to better health and it has dawned on me, I am comfortable with my physical self for the first time in just about a decade and for that I am grateful, but I do see a lot of road left ahead of me so letting up at this junction would not be a good thing.

Thank you to everyone that has emailed me or left me a message or comment, honestly it was an email that I got that made me look at things and decide that I have to start blogging regularly again and prompted this entry, keep on keepin on and all that and don't forget that H2O, tomorrow is another day and I will do my best to make sure that I toss up a new entry in the am.

As Ever
Me