Why does food comfort me?

See that bowl of cherries over there? they ain't mine.. When life kicks you in the mouth once you've gained some momentum down that hill and your legs are not doing the propelling any more I dare you to try and stop without injuring yourself. In this case that fat kid peeked out from the dark corner and snatched up some crap food and basked in the stresses of life if only for an evening it still amazes me how easily it can happen and when it does that "I just don't give a damn" attitude comes out because the curve ball came just a little too fast, perhaps this is the life of a fat guy getting thin. Nothing irks me more than the after party part of some bad choices because it seems so easy once its done and over with and the bottom of the hill is coming up fast and the ground is leveling out a bit, but its too late at that point and the only thing that can be done is to get back into the right way to do it mode.

Confused yet? let me splain as much as I am gonna Lucy, apparently when the shit hits that proverbial fan and a huge plate of stress enters stage left this ol boy starts grabbin for the Doritos. Regular every day stress doesn't get me, Bills pilin up? hand me that banana, Car broke down? hmmm I think a salad for dinner sounds good, That old back injury actin up and keepin me from the gym? lets grill some up some fish! What I speak of is not for the blog but effects it just the same because I don't believe in un-truths otherwise I could merely just post about how great my intake was and pretend to not understand a gain or a no loss Friday weigh in. With that I've already said too much because no one reads this blog to hear about what I didn't do where my health and fitness is concerned so let me get to what I have done to remedy the Tuesday that I had.

Monday I had a great day, stayed within my calories and got to the gym albeit later than usual then yesterday I went over on my calories about...lets just say that I was well over but I did get 3 gallons of fluid into my body before I went to bed last night. This morning upon waking up and having a conversation with myself that ended up with a "Fuck you you fuckin fuck, do what you need to and stop with the stuffing of the pie-hole" I decided that it would be another 3 gallon day and as of right this second I am 2 gallons down so getting to that 3 will be an easy task. Breakfast went down, my pre gym snack went down, and my post gym Whey protein shake is down the hatch as well but I made the decision that I would post before I ate any kind of lunch so here I am. I left for the gym after dropping the kiddo off at school and I did 27 minutes on the stationary bike including a 1 minute cool down, after that I went over and lifted weights working my shoulders and back. When I was finished with the weights I headed over to a treadmill and did my grade program, long story short I was at the gym for an hour and forty five minutes and have to admit that I feel like awesomeness in a bag right now.

Busting my arse for the rest of the week is what I can do to help push the scale back towards where I was last friday but between my Sunday and yesterday I am not expecting much good news on the scale this week. I have been wrong before where my Friday weight is concerned in the past so who knows! Why does food comfort me? What is it about eating that seems to distract so many of us from situations that include stress? this is an answer that I need to find. Though I handle 95% of the stress that comes my way without the reckless abandon that was used last night there is that 5% of the time where its enough that I make the wrong decision with some comfort foods. I suppose the fact that I am down 211 pounds has to speak for something as far as my slips go because to lose 211 pounds slips or no slips I have changed my life and the way I live it for sure.

Thats all I got for today, check in tomorrow to see where the rest of my day brought me.

As Ever
Me

Monday morning quarterback.

Last Friday I hit my new low weight since starting down this path and while atop the mountain looking down at the world with my belt cinched in a couple notches more felt awesome it doesn't mean that I can let up with what I am doing. Saturday morning as per usual I woke up and stepped on the scale and 322.6 flashed on the display, and I ended up going over calories by a bag of movie popcorn (Sherlock Homles was pretty good) but that's not all, I was out all day and didn't get enough fluids into the day and I did have a couple drinks with my neighbor. Sunday came with a large side of stressful situations with my son and I honestly just didn't care about watching what I was eating, that's not to say that I gorged myself but to say that I counted a single bite would simply be a lie. Managing to get a big salad in for dinner last night helped a bit but I know that I went well over my calorie limit for the day by more than a few calories and I did step on the scale this morning and lets just leave it at I am up in weight, retention I am sure, but up none the less.


Thursday was the last day that I made it to the gym, It just was not in my cards this weekend which means that I will make every attempt to go each day this week. Today I will have a cleansing kind of day to get anything out of my system that I put in over the weekend, or should I say that I didn't put in namely H2O. I am 64oz of H2O down as I write this and I am planning on flooding my body today with fluids to help with the rehab from Sunday and there is a gallon of green tea on my kitchen counter that I will start into as soon as the publish button is clicked.

Along with all of the fluids that are in my immediate future is much fruits and vegetables because today will be a meat free day. I sometimes do an all veg day where I do not eat any meat products and I limit the cheeses etc which isn't too far from normal anyways but today will be one of those days in an effort to squeeze the excess sodium that I am sure is floating around in me out. Today's menu will consist of, My breakfast which was a bowl of cereal and I will have a pear in a couple of hours followed by veggie soup for lunch and some more fruit after that between lunch and dinner. For dinner I am making Turkey burgers for the family but I will have a big salad with baby spinach as a base and then off to the gym as I have to go later than normal today. Upon returning home I shall sit down to watch Heroes with however much fruit I need to finish the remainder of 1700 calories and perhaps a whey protein shake for good measure and a protein boost, with some simple planning it suddenly becomes easy.

It was a less than stellar weekend for me all the way around where diet and exercise goes but that does not mean that its time to pull out the good silverware and order up a rum cake so that I can sit alone and sad eating until the last bite goes down. I believe that is where so many people fail at dropping weight, a day or two of not so perfect eating turns into feelings of failure and down the hill the snow ball rolls until our midsections are as big as that very snow ball. Some days will not be as good as they could have or should have been but using that as an excuse to keep that ball rolling in the wrong direction sits firmly on each of our shoulders because we are responsible for what we do every day.

This week should be interesting with my weekend of not so great choices but in the grand scheme its not anything to worry about as far as I am concerned. My plan will be to work a little harder this week at staying strict with the intake, drink a little extra for a couple of days to counteract some of the sodium build up from the weekend of non hydration and to get to the gym every day without fail and while there work just a little harder than normal which is already hard enough! Walking the walk for 741 days now I am in a state of mind that assures that I will be successful with all of my health goals even when a random not so on track day pops into my immediate vicinity.

That's all I got, Thanks for following along and remember who makes the decisions.

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Me

Weigh in, Only 48 pounds from goal??? when did this happen!?!

Like a child on Christmas morning I sprung from my bed today and straight to the scale, after a quick detour to the bathroom of course. Onto the scale I went..but before I get to all of that Thursday went very well with the intake, exercise and hydration. 1790 calories went down the hatch and I had a big salad for dinner along with my gallon of green tea and more than a gallon of H2O I would call that day a success where my intake was concerned. My trip to the gym yesterday was great too! I did 20 minutes on the bike and did sprints @125-135 rpm every 3 minutes followed by the incline routine that I mentioned in an earlier post, I skipped the weights for the day because I was running out of time so 50 minutes of cardio would have to do, over all I am happy with how the day turned out.

Oh I did weigh in this morning, lets get to that! The first time that my feet made contact with the cold scale the number that flashed on the display was 323.4lbs, number two said 322.8lbs followed by 323.0lbs! We will use that last one and call it 323lbs for the week, That is a 4 pound drop from last weeks weigh in! I am now down 211lbs total or forty two 5lb bags of sugar and only have 48 pounds left to lose to reach my initial goal of 275 pounds. With this weeks weigh in comes a new low weight and that means some pictures of things that weigh as much as I have lost and weigh the same as me so here goes.

This 1971 T350 Rebel comes in at 323 pounds like yours truly, these bikes are starting to get smaller!

This little fellow is a 1969 T 125 Stinger and comes in at 211 lbs which is what I have lost to date, can you imagine carrying that around with you all day?

Normally I don't have two weeks in a row with huge numbers like this week but I will do everything in my power to try and get to the teens come next Friday as I believe that once I hit the teens a fire shall be lit beneath my ever shrinking posterior and sub 300 pounds will be just around the corner. Keep going to the gym, keep eating as many whole foods as possible without obsessing over it, keep drinking my Green tea and H2O, Get much sleep...This is the plan, this has always been the plan and this is what works for me so I must stick with it.

Two hundred eleven pounds lighter I sit here today writing this post, The same man yet so different that I literally do not recognize myself in the mirror at times. I can't say that its been the easiest thing that I have done in my life but honestly it has not been as hard as I once thought it would be. Starting out at 534 pounds and looking down the road at the end goal was 2 years ago and but a speck in the distance, now that I am only 48 pounds from that original goal that I set for myself, looking back at the days of 500 plus pounds is getting smaller and smaller in the rear view mirror and I see great things coming up in the road for me. People will look at me funny when I say "You just have to decide to do it and follow through" or "Move more eat less" and I usually get a response something like "Yeah right, if it was that easy no one would be fat" and honestly it would have been my response once upon a time too but with every inch of my ever shrinking self I say, It IS that easy. Perhaps when one is faced with the thought of an early death because of a weight issue the decision gets easier to make because of the alternate ending to the flick but the bottom line is that if you make the decision to do it, you can and will do it.

I have taken enough of your time with my ramblings this fine Friday morning so the end has come to this episode of As the fat guy turns....I suppose that soon I will not be able to say that and will need to come up with a new title to this soap opera because "As the svelte guy turns" just doesn't sound as good. Thanks for following along and bearing witness to just an average Joe dropping Maury Povich kind of weight with no magic tricks and no suction devices, just plain good old fashioned determination and a few simple rules.

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Nothing profound, nothing witty, just a pre-weigh in post.

This week was an extremely strict one where the intake is concerned, I ate within my calorie range every day including the weekend which has been as of late a little bit loosey goosey when counting by the ounce. Making it to the gym has been priority one since the kiddos went back to school which is cool because that's my me time! and its what I need to do to keep the weight dropping. Drinking enough water and tea has never been a problem for me as I like water and I love green tea which means I am always hydrated, in fact as I type this I am on my 2nd giant mug of hot green tea because I forgot to brew the cold stuff last night, I do love my tea. Looking for a new low weight in the am because tomorrow is weigh in day for the blog, I have done an exceptional job this week with all aspects of eating good, exercise, sleep and staying hydrated and want it to reflect on the scale in the am.


Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am looking for a shiny new low weight for myself, will it be a motorcycle? perhaps a body builder? I never know what that "low weight" image will be! Todays post shall be short and sweet because I have a few things that I need to take care of this morning so that I can make it to the gym on time. Keep on keepin on and all that and make sure to pop in on me tomorrow to see the new low! yes I am predicting a new low even though Tuesday was the last time I got on the scale.

Thanks for following along and all that, now ask yourself "what have I done for my health today?".

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Me

Tell me is it time to get down....

Chugging right along this week I am feeling great about whats been done thus far, this is my off day from the gym but I may go anyways in an effort to push the weight down as far as I can by Friday. Something that I've noticed lately at the gym is the amount of people that are there when I am has more than doubled, I guess its all of the "new resolution" people hitting the gym and that's cool! but its making it harder to find a machine to work out on. The gym that I go to is a pretty good size with tons of machines so I say harder to find a machine but its more like find the machine that I am use to using, Yesterday I walk in and head to "my" bike and there is someone on it. The first thought in my head was "now doesn't she know that's MY bike for this time slot of the day?" I grinned at my thought and took the bike next to her and rode my ride. I found that the treadmill was the same story as I walked towards the part of the gym where I usually use the hamster wheel just about every single machine had someone on it, many of them fumbling with the controls and I thought about when I first joined the gym.

Its funny how when I walked in on my first day I felt like I didn't really belong and that all eyes were going to be on me and I can't help but to think many of the new faces in the gym are going through that same thing. Unsure of how to work the equipment, unsure of how to work the controls and trying to remember to wipe the machine down when they are done using it all while trying to stay focused on the mission at hand which is to get moving and lose some weight or get healthier. I expect the crowd to do a couple things in the coming weeks, I think it will thin out a bit as people learn what time of day works for them and adjust their schedule, I believe that some will lose their drive and simple stop coming and I think that a few of the new faces will become fixtures at that time of day as I have. The trainers are in full effect running around from person to person trying to sell their services and there seems to be more employees around in general showing people around the gym with the "tour" in an attempt to gain their patronage.


With this new atmosphere and wall to wall people Zeusmeatball strikes again with the singing aloud because of getting into the music a little too much, and this time its a doozy. About half way through my trot on the hamster wheel at an 11.5% incline Lo Fidelity all stars "Battleflag" which I just uploaded onto my mp3 comes through my ear buds and before I know it I am tapping on the treadmill in beat with the music. Lipping the words but no sound as I am working through the incline I can feel myself letting go of the fact that there are other people in my immediate vicinity and know that my head is moving to the music a bit now and there is a little more swagger in my stride to go with the song and then it happened. Loud and I am sure unexpected to all of the people around me I say "Tell me is it time to get down on your muthafudgin' knees" (I did NOT say fudge!) and as quick as I said it I realized just like Ralphie did in "a Christmas story" when he dropped the lug nuts in the snow what I had said. Trying to look as natural as possible I glance to my left and the girl had ear phones on but when I looked to my right this girl was ear to ear smile looking right at me so I just shrugged at her and smiled back and kept going, she chuckled and again I think that its time to stop listening to the mp3 when I am on the treadmill.

Tuesday went pretty good over all, my calories were a bit higher than normal coming in at 1865 because I was really hungry in the am so I made myself a whey protein shake around 10:00am to keep that feeling away but otherwise was a text book menu. I drank 1.25 gallons of tea and just over 1 gallon of Straight H2O and did 20 minutes on the bike at the gym along with my incline workout on the treadmill. The incline workout is just 3.1 mph (for now) and starting at 3.5% incline increasing the incline by 2% every two minutes until I hit 11.5% and come back down by 2% every two minutes until I hit 3.5% again followed by a 2 minute cool down @2.5mph and finishing with a run @6.0 mph for as long as I can go.

My goal of 300 pounds by April 2nd is seeming less daunting to me lately and I am unsure why, Making that goal is what I am focusing on right now and because I have a target to shoot at it feels very attainable. Move more, eat less and apparently sing at the gym is what works for weight loss but I need to stop doing one of those three things else I become to someone "Sings on the treadmill guy" hey! its better than "fat dude on the treadmill" right?! and with that the end has come to the latest edition of as the fat guy turns, You may now return to your regularly scheduled program.

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Me

Fat bottomed girls they'll be riding today, So look out for those beauties oh yeah.

Looking out my window at the snow that seems to have been there forever I want to ride my bike, 3 inches of snow in the road and a foot in the yard the only thing that I want to do is take a ride around the lake. I got a set of bar ends for my bike for Christmas and while I was installing them my bike was looking at me from the corner of her eye begging me to hop on and ride her hard, but I have to turn her down for now because of the 100% chance of me ending up on my arse in the snow. Riding the bike at the gym though working some of the same muscles is not even close to a real ride and I don't know if its just because I have something new on the bike or if its that I truly miss it but it is calling to me. Soon enough the snow will melt and the leaves will return to the trees and the hilly road will be there again for me to enjoy, for now the gym will be my source of exercise and hopefully my strict rule of going daily will whittle me down to a smaller pilot and the length or intensity of my rides can go up come spring, I know it will.

The bike at the gym is a great tool for me, I can keep the leg muscles working in a familiar way so that when the time comes to get back on the mountain bike I will not feel like its been years since riding. I am able to change the intensity of my rides at the gym with the push of a button and I have been changing my ride each day just slightly enough so that its not the same over and over, I ride on level 11 and kick it up to 13 for one minute intervals maybe 3 or 4 times per ride and my distance has steadily been going up. This tells me a couple things, I am getting stronger because if I can bump the resistance up for small intervals and increase my distance then obviously I am improving. It also tells me that higher resistance doesn't effect me too much, its almost as if upping the resistance is making me work faster but not harder, I don't know how to explain it but when I do intervals I find it easier to ride, its almost like when I kick it back down to level 11 it feels easy and my cadence goes up slightly over all.

Monday was good for all aspects of this whole better health thang, I ate within my calories coming in at 1775 total calories and drank more than a gallon of Green tea and H2O. I made it to the gym and did 20 minutes on the bike doing intervals like I mentioned above followed by 40 minutes of weight lifting and a 20 minute trot on the treadmill. Sleep was on par but I was woke up at 6:30 am by my daughter sitting in my bed singing and blabbing to wify while she got dressed for work 7 hours is a decent enough nights sleep I suppose, at least my daughter will be in bed nice and early tonight from her early rise.

We're off to a good start this week all the way around so come Friday I am looking for a good drop in weight and hitting that 300 pound goal by April is starting to feel like I can do it. Whether you have 20 pounds to lose, 150 pounds to lose or like me more than 250 pounds to lose its up to you to do it, no one can do it for you and no one can make you do it. When I started off I looked at my weight loss and thought about how losing 100 pounds seemed impossible and here I am more than 200 pounds down so far and realistically I could probably drop 300 pounds total before all is said and done but that's a bridge to be crossed once I reach that first goal of 275 pounds. Walk, Run, bike whatever you choose just do it and do it for yourself because its the only thing that's going to work, hoping or wishing for better health and or weight loss just doesn't work, if it did I would have been a svelte version of who I am right now a long time ago.

I don't believe in Peter Pan, Frankenstein or Superman, All I wanna do is.....

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Me

Monday morning and a menu.

This week seems to be cruising on by and its only Monday, somehow knowing that I have done everything that I could over the weekend and my entire week as a whole is making me feel like I am going to have a very good week with the weight. Having posted that comparison picture in yesterdays post I looked at it and I said this before but I have to reiterate because I don't recognize the guy in the third picture quite fully just yet. I know that its me, I know what I have done and I know how different I feel but the visual is just not something that I am use to yet, I have been at many stages of health and different weights and I have not been this small since somewhere in my junior year in high school. I have also decided that that image will be the last one that I post on here until I hit my goal weight, so hopefully sometime in July or August I will be able to post a new one. That last statement gives you an idea of what I am shooting for as far as a time line with the weight. I figure that if I can get to 300 pounds by April 2nd that will be 36 pounds in 4 months and I will be within 25 pounds of my goal weight of 275lbs which will leave me 4 months if by July and 5 months if by August to get that last 25 off so it is a reasonable amount to shoot for.

I got a comment from someone saying that they miss me posting my menus so I thought that I would post up Sundays menu for your eyes. I haven't been keeping the menu as I use to, I still write everything down, I still count every calorie but I have been filling out my excel sheet short hand but it is something that I liked doing on here so I am going to try and post the menu up more often again, This is Sunday's menu and its 1665 total calories.

Breakfast
8:15 AM
2 cups honey combs 220
1 cup 1% milk 110

Lunch
12:00 PM
1 can low fat progresso clam chowder 220
1 multi-grain english muffin 100
1 whole tomato 30
smart balance spread 25

3:45 PM
1 apple 85

Dinner
5:45 PM
1 egg 3 whites 115
1/2 oz pepperoni 35
onion/peppers/jalapeno/tomato 50
2oz low fat cheddar cheese 90
6 slices turkey bacon 210
multi-grain english muffin 100
smart balance spread (sauteed on onions) 50

7:30 PM
1 apple 85
1.5 T peanut butter 140

Fluids
G-Tea 1.25 gallons
H2O 1 gallon

That is a pretty decent day and the omelet that Wify made me for dinner was very good but the day wasn't exactly 1665 calories like the spreadsheet says because I did have a bite of apple pie, I literally mean a bite off of a slice that the boss lady was eating I just couldn't resist! This week the kids return to school so I can get my trips to the gym back in order and all at the same time again which will be nice as I have been going when I can and that sometimes isn't the best thing because going in the evening for means that I will be up later from the energy boost that I seem to get after my workout. Good eats, good workouts and I had a new low weight last Friday, over all I am pleased with the last week or two of this whole get healthy thing, I am really gunning hard to reach under 300 pounds by April 2nd and with some hard work and discipline I should be able to get there.

A new week, a new year and hopefully come Friday we see a new low weight for me, Thanks for following along.

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Me

Comparison pictures 2 year 207 pound lost inside!

Its Sunday afternoon and the snow has been falling all day, we have up to 40 mph winds says the monkey in the plastic magic box and we are experiencing sub zero temperatures so I have been inside all day finding not much to do. Yesterday it was closer to 30 degrees so we took the chance to go outside and romp in the snow for about an hour and wify had brought the camera outside and snapped off a couple pictures. I was playing with the kids and ended up making a 7 foot tall snow angel because I was on a small hill and slid down while flapping, I thought it would be fun to take a photo from winter's 08 through 2010 and shop them next to one another for a compare shot. The first image is Jan 08 and I was 5 days into my lifestyle revamp the second image is late December 08 and the last one is from yesterday, and of course my wicked snow angel.

Winter 2008 to winter 2010 comparison shot, I still look at that last one and don't recognize the guy in the picture sometimes. these images are clickable for full sized views.

My Giant snow angel.

I did very well with my intake yesterday coming in at 1700 calories on the button and I drank more than 2 gallons of tea and H2O. I did make it to the gym with Wify in lieu of the snow storm that we were having I did 20 minutes on my stationary bike and another 20 on the treadmill, we called it a day and headed home for a great dinner that I thought was going to be less than extraordinary. I made tuna with red onions and black pepper on toast with lettuce and I made sweet potato fries on the side, for whatever reason this meal was exactly what I needed because it was very tasty. By the end of the day I had enough calories left for a small bowl of airpopped popcorn with a movie which was cool as I have been craving it all weekend.

Over all its been a great holiday weekend and having Wify home for four days was nice, I stayed on track and ate only what I should have and got in some good exercise between the gym and all of the shoveling which I think I will go finish up as soon as I hit publish because it appears to have stopped falling from the sky for the time being. Thanks for reading along and remember kids, the decision is yours to make because no one forces you to stuff your face with shit food and nobody is stopping you from exercising and please don't fool yourself with "I am too big to exercise" or "I just can't do it" You can and you are choosing not to, I told myself those things for far too long and it got me to 534 pounds and if I can exercise at 534 pounds those things startslooking like just the next excuse.

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Me

600 posts, 2 years and 207 pounds later..

This post marks my 600th post since I started writing this blog, that is 600 attempts to better myself where health is the subject and 600 times that I sat at my lap top and decided that I would show the world that a once 534 pound guy can and will stick to a diet and exercise plan that has changed his life forever. When I go back and re-read some of my older posts I can recall exactly how I was feeling on any given day, I can remember how it felt to want to lose the weight and hoping that it would stick this time around. If you are reading this you know that it did stick this time and I am a different person for my efforts, I look for things to do that will get me moving and I jump at the chance to do yard work or shovel the drive way when it snows and the contrast between then and now and how I approach these things is insanely different.


Dropping to a new low weight yesterday seems to have kicked me back into gear because last night I turned down popcorn with a movie and today I have already made my whole menu for the entire day. I will have a lower weight come this Friday because I plan on doing everything exactly how I need to so that I can make that claim an actuality. I have been at this for 2 years now and most of the things that I do on a daily basis to better my health and drop the pounds come second nature at this point, I really don't think about making my meal portions too big any more because when I make my plate if I am not weighing it looks pretty much the same, I HAVE learned portion control. I feel deprived if I have to skip working out for a day instead of if I don't get an extra extra large piece of cake, in fact there is an apple pie in my refrigerator that has been there since Thursday night and I haven't even thought about cutting myself a slice.

Friday I did good with the intake coming in at 1725 calories, 1 gallon of green tea and slightly more than a gallon of H2O and I did make it to the gym. At the gym I rode the bike for 20 minutes but I upped my pace and rode an extra mile in the same time so I was off to a good start. I then got on the treadmill and did interval running, I walked for 2 minutes at 3.5 mph and than ran for 1 minute at 6 mph at varying inclines throughout the routine and felt pretty good about the workout as a whole.

Making good choices is second nature for me now where justifying that 1 pound beef and bean burrito was second nature for me in the past. I enjoy taking a ride around the lake on my bike or going on a hike through some of the trails local to me with Wify now where logging into a game or making a double decker sandwich of some sort is what use to be the days special, Things have certainly changed around here.

Here's to another great year and with some hard work I will hit my goal weight sooner than later.

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Me

New low weight!!! return of the pictures!

Lets get right to this weigh in thang this morning, I woke up and of course I went straight to the scale and what I saw was 327.0 pounds on the button. I was 330.4 pounds last Friday so this week brings be not only a 3 pound loss but also a new low weight since starting down this road to better health so I am excited about that little tidbit. Because I am at a new low weight it of course means the return of the what I have lost so far pictures and somehow that makes me want to do it again next week and this weeks post hasn't even been posted yet! Here are the images for your viewing pleasure.

This KTM Duke 690 weighs in at 327 pounds just like yours truly.

Andre Iguodala of the Philidelphia 76ers weighs in at 207 pounds which is what I have lost to date.

This is Mike Morelli from The biggest loser season 7 and he lost the same 207 pounds as I did.

My Thursday went well besides not making it to the gym, I ate 1800 calories and got all of my fluids into my day in the way of 1 gallon of green tea and a little more than a gallon of straight H2O. Though I did not get to go to the gym I did do some light dumb bell movements with some dumb bells that I have here at the house but that was the extent of my working out unless you want to count the snow shoveling that I did in the afternoon.

I feel like I am on a roll again and came out of the Holidaze on top with my numbers, I am looking forward to next weeks weigh in and the possibility of a NEW new low weight! I was chatting with Wify last night and I told her that I need to get into the 3teens because that would mean less than 20 lbs away from my under 300 pound goal and I am very number driven so I think that when I am that close I will become fixated on the 200's and plow through it. When I hit my 100 pounds lost mark I kind of went into a funk -which didn't last long- because it felt like I was starting over at zero -yes I know silly way to see it but hey!- something is keeping me tethered to this 330 pound area and I have to get into the teens so that I can take that next step and move on down into the 200's for good.

Two years ago to the day I was 534 pounds, here I sit typing this post 207 pounds lighter and eons wiser where health and wellness is the subject matter. That first step was a hard one but once the momentum got going just like anything its harder to stop it than to keep on keepin on so here I am. Thanks for following along and thanks for the support over the past two years, Your comments and emails have definitely helped me along the way.

Will next Friday bring me closer to my goal weight? to be found out but I am going to try my hardest to make sure that it does.

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