Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Who runs Bartertown?

When you learn to put yourself first and do something incredible then that incredible thing gets taken back because of a lack of focus I can tell ya its not good feeling. There was a time in my life when I struggled to walk up a flight of stairs without feeling like I was going to die before I reached the top and some time around then I decided that I had to completely change the way that I was doing things, and I did. Losing 229 pounds at my lowest weight I came in at 305 pounds, now 305 pounds may sound high and it is but at the same time I am about 6'4'' tall and built large so its not so far off where I want to be and the way 305 feels compared to where I am today is an insane difference.

I think that not having something to reference was easier on the gray matter than having been there such a short time ago and knowing exactly how it feels. On my way down from 534 pounds I had no real idea of how 305 pounds felt, I was probably a Freshman in high school the last time I was that weight and not close to being an adult. My adult life had never seen that weight before so now that I had a short visit down to see the family living in room 305 it aggravates me that I let it go, take everything else out of the equation and it boils down to the fact that I was not disciplined enough to keep what I worked so hard for. I am left with a do-over if I want to see the other side of 300, I have to re-lose about 65 pounds JUST to get where I was already and if I let myself I could get pretty annoyed at that fact but instead I am going to attempt to turn that energy into drive that will get me back down to where I need to be with my weight.

I have to take control of what goes into my body, letting stress or aggravation get the better of me has not been good for my waist line so its time to get back to the basics. I created the perfect plan for myself, for my health and was beating the pounds into submission while making my body stronger than it had ever been so I do know how and what to do. Years of practical research and application of that research into my daily life turned a 534 pound man who struggled to do the most menial physical tasks into a 300 pound man whom had the world in his grip, there is no way that I can let that go.

Where my health is the subject, I have to be the one running the show.

That's all I got

As Ever


  1. Learning to put oneself first can be the most difficult thing we ever do in life. From reading your blog, It's so clear that you are a caretaker in this take care of those who are important to you. What we caretakers have to remember is that if we don't take care of ourselves, we won't be the best we can be. When we are at our best, we have so much more to offer. Anyone who has struggled with their weight, whether it's 50 or 500 extra pounds, knows how hard it is to stay focused, stay on track, and change our lives in a way that supports a healthy lifestyle, to lose weight, and to keep it off. It's a life-long struggle, and not just something we can spend a finite amount of time conquering, and then just relish the victory. Once the weight is off, we still work at keeping it off. The bad news is, we are not perfect. Life gets in the way, we fall off the wagon, we stop losing or we gain some weight back. The good news is, we can start again, get back on track, and lose the weight and be healthy. Yes, it's a do-over, and you are losing weight you already lost once. Just remember, like you said in the post, you know how to do it, and more importantly, you know you CAN do it! I enjoy your blog. You are very inspirational, even when you are having a rough time. Keep your chin up, and when life gets in the way as it tends to do, just keep doing what you have been doing, and pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get started on that do-over! Best wishes to you!

  2. I like a big man. My hubby is about 250 but 6 feet tall and he looks good to me.