Monday, April 21, 2014

Those things that make you think about those other things..

So, the poison ivy is clearing up and opening day for trout has passed as did the big Easter dinner I made, things are looking up. This blog has given me a place to drop my thoughts when I feel the need to, it had given me a couple friends I would have not had otherwise and I have not posted as much as I might have shouldda in past months but here we go. 

This is how my day ended on opening day 2014, just amazing.

Opening day fishing was a disaster and only saved by the company that I had and one of the most amazing sunsets I have ever had the joy of laying eyes on to end my day, so in short it was a beautiful disaster. My daughter and I set out to fill the freezer with trout and at the end of the day all said and done we had a single 15 inch rainbow trout to show for our efforts and I owed her a buck for catching the first and what turned out to be the only fish of the day. Something that also made the day not so awesome was the fact that I broke the end off of one of my poles by rolling the window up on it... twice... so now my 7 foot pole is a tad shorter.



 It was a snack eating kind of day as I didn't have a solid meal all day Saturday besides breakfast but I was not minding calories at all so it made not much difference either way. Sunday on the other hand was a different story all together and the feast that I made for my family was pretty amazing... calorie filled for sure, but amazing. 

I had been doing well with my calories until about a week ago then I slacked, Today is a new day and I am not going to dwell on the fact that I have not eaten the best in the past week or so, it is what it is and its time to move on. I have to realize that I can do what I can do and worrying about things out of my control is not helping the ahem.. situation with my ass so I am trying to limit worrying but we all know how that goes. Over all I am feeling more positive about my weight situation but admittedly I do struggle a lot with dealing with the weight that I have regained and the mental that goes along with having succeeded in dropping what I did and turning myself around and now being in a 2 steps forward 3 steps back place in this journey. 

Once upon a time there was a fat guy that was not able to live the life that I am living right now, once upon a time I was living a life doing things that I cannot do at this moment and living in the now of life has got to become the way of me. The first time around I was a guy never having known how it felt to be healthy, this time around I know how it feels to be healthy and able to do what I please when I please and I am still unsure which is worse but in THIS moment, its worse having known and I'll use that to drive me forward into te life that I am trying to take back.  

Thats all I got

As Ever
Me

2 comments:

  1. What a beautiful sunset! I have NO DOUBT at all that you are heading a step at a time in the right direction. The regain is part of your journey to health- it is such a common occurance. You will get back to where you were and keep on going to where you feel is a healthy weight. this is all part of that same journey.You will be able to use this experience to help others in similar situation in future. Be kind to yourself!!!! And WELL DONE!!! You are inspiring. All things good are on that path ahead for you- no doubt about it.Have a great week.

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  2. I just found this blog. I have a hard time believing there's another guy out there in the same mental boat as myself. In 08 I looked at myself and decided I needed to change the way I lived - not a diet, but an entire lifestyle change. I dropped a bunch of weight (I admit, not as much as you), and felt like a new person. Over the years it has crept back up a bit; but I'm not back to where I started - and neither are you. That's the thing with it being a "lifestyle change", it's a change that takes a lifetime. That's not sexy, and it doesn't sell well on TV. But like you I remember how it felt to be healthy and energetic, and that's a goal to strive for that's more meaningful than looking good. Shit happens - nothing goes perfect forever in life; we're going to miss our goals sometimes, but we know what our long-term goal is, and the fact that you're still posting here means you're still shooting for that goal, and on the right path. If there's one thing this blog must have shown you, it's that you weren't alone in the struggle to loose the weight; well you're also not alone in the struggle to keep it off. Anyways - I just wanted to let you know, I'm at the exact same point in this as you are. Let's keep it together as we head into spring.

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